It seems like a daily battle within, one day I am full of joy and thankful for all that I am and have, the next day I am feeling down and not satisfied with who I am or what I have. So why or how do things change overnight? I believe it is that pre-menopausal journey I am on, my blood work says differently though. I don't believe it!
As I continue to seek God's Word, I find myself being convicted of the very things of this world my flesh takes in. The Spirit of the Lord is within me, so why does it struggle to shine bright?
LOVE is the first of the fruits and it is the most important command Jesus gave us. The word love is used so loosely and it seems to be no longer taken seriously. In the eyes of God it is not a feeling rather than an action. It gives freely without expecting anything in return. Love others without feeling they deserve it or not.
The second fruit of the Spirit is JOY. It is not the same as happiness. As I reflect on this, I realize, I struggle with joy. I rely so much on others to make me happy rather the Spirit op the Lord.
And PEACE, another fruit of the Spirit. How can there be peace when there is so much chaos in this world? God tells us... Do not to be anxious about anything; rather, bring up all your requests to God in prayers and petitions, along with giving thanks. Then the peace of God that exceeds all understanding will keep your hearts and minds safe in Christ Jesus. ~Philippians 4:6-7 Sounds easy, right? But I struggle to complain to God. Does He really want to hear me complain? I have so much, why am I complaining....?
Because I just want to be LOVED! (God loves me! That should be sufficient.)
So how does pre-menopausal fall into all this? HORMONES! Out of whack, unbalanced, lacking, etc...